Going to a rave with someone you like... now that...
Best way to end the year, hands down. Thanks for everything: to my friends and to you! Aah I miss college already!
And to you:
Wow. This past week has been so surreal. Thank you so much for making finals week so much more enjoyable. Thank you so much for always putting a smile on my face, and letting me put a smile on yours. Thank you so much for opening up to me and letting me do the same, for letting me know there are good folks out there, for letting me be a part of your last few days here! I honestly can say...
Me: But why do you push them away, if you like them so much?
Person: Because I'd rather push them away now... than later have them walk out on me.
It's time to bring it back.
This year has been tremendous. I usually would end up posting about my experiences, but recently I’ve gotten too busy/not in the mood—I ended up only posting when my heart was in flutters or in pieces or when I was frustrated to the end of this world where I would only post vague vague complaints… I’m done with that! That was not how I meant to run this blog, that was...
wow: you are beyond cool, and i am nobody.
i don’t know what you see in me.
I gave up everything because I thought I wasn't...
But now I question: Did I give it all up because of you?
The problem with having so much potential is that...
I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around...– John Green
And so no one knows the full story, because
I know that what I want is exactly what I shouldn’t do, and whoever I tell will tell me to stop doing what I’m doing. But I can’t, and it’s not that that it’s a bad decision, ‘cause I know it’s not, it’s just dangerous. But it’s exactly what I want to do, and I believe the risk is worth it.
I got legitimately cockblocked. In the most literal sense possible. Hahahaha never thought that would actually happen edit: Sorry, not the MOST literal meaning of the word, but as in to the most accurate definition of it. Hah
And what if we all weren't passionate, but just...
And before you ask me why I'm not getting more...
Look at yourselves. This is ridiculous. For something that should be friendly competition, this feud has gone too far. Seeing the personal backlashes, the verbal rips, the scrutiny of every last word and every last action, from the present to their fucking past; We’re not in high school anymore. Why it is that I have to be the one to tell you to fucking grow up. They say you can avoid...
And even if this works out, you can't be my first...
Because I am certain that once that ends, I will be the one who will be completely crushed.
Can't wait until this is all over.
I want to destress. I want to hang out and enjoy the rest of this semester. I want to focus on working out and focus on going to class not catching up. I want to sleep. I want to finally hang out with you and see if anything happens if anything happens. If you even had a small notion that we maybe thought the same thing, or if this is completely one-sided. I don’t know. I want to...
AAAHHH I'M GETTING MY BERKELEY BABIES
Already got two <3
there are some keen questions i'm being asked, i'd...
wallowing in embarrassment
but thank you for the reminiscence, i think i really needed that
One of the biggest struggles about this in the...
I think I’m set. I’m going for this.
Just got called out for saying “Thanks, guys.” Gotta remember to use inclusive speech in these progressive spaces. “We’re not all guys, Quinton.” “Whoops, my bad. Thanks, everyone.”
all of these mixed feelings make it so difficult,...
Live life to the fullest. Explore. Experience....
I think I’m really finding myself in college. Thanks.
Gibberish: getting picked last on the basketball... →
nh4nvu: I hated recess façade of forced laughter and 11-yr-old cooties concealed a decade of self-hate the asphalt was a battlefield for relevance and I was always the last one left fighting for my dignity dusty and beaten like the basketballs the schools used to give us “What was your name again? Nan? Naan like the bread?” “Yeah,” I said because I wanted to save myself further...
why do i realize now that what i've told you is...
Finally freeing myself, and it feels so fucking...
"But why did you say it? I know you were under the...
“Because I don’t have the strength to say it when I’m not.”
My professor was trying to fix a video in his web...
She told me I seemed dangerous.
I was confused, I didn’t know what she meant. “You just seem dangerous in the way you deal with your problems and how you go about doing your own things. Like you’re on the edge, you know? You’re going to get hurt really badly because you’re almost reckless. That’s why I haven’t been letting myself get too attached to you. Because I know I’m just...
Why did no one tell me that opening up would be so...
I did not realize how far behind I am from truly being myself until… I think I still haven’t realized it to be honest.
Before I die, I want to be completely, myself.
i think it's time for me to accept these things...
i do not want to be content.
to be content means to be satisfied with that i have. it means to look at what i’ve done or what i’ve accomplished and say, “this is good enough.” i do not want to stop there. i do not want to be satisfied, because i do not want to stop improving. i do not want to stop trying, to see what i can accomplish, rather than what i’ve already accomplished. i do not want...
It's an amazing change and experience to live in...
I can walk on campus right now and join thousands of students into what has now become a giant party over Obama’s re-election. I sit in a city not only of people who share my views, but hold the passion and motivation to care and learn about the issues we all share as students and people. That is incredible. People here are incredible. And I will cherish it for as long as I can, because I...
Inspired would be a gross understatement.
Halloween for me was spent differently than I’ve ever spent it before. That was actually the first night I didn’t go out and have “fun”, I think. None the less, it was a great Halloween spent. Being in ASUC, I was learning a ton about the college experience and how student government worked in college. It’s so much different. But it’s so much better. ...
The best part is, you never stop learning.
Maybe one day you’ll spend it in the books, but the next you’re learning about your peers. You’re learning about their passions, their beliefs, their lives, and they want to learn about yours. You talk about anything, from the difficulty of your classes to the meanings of life. Even though you hit brick walls or wallow in frustration, nobody gives up. You agree. You disagree. But...
uhhh what just happened...
I just pledged a frat, and I might actually do it… what?
I love it here.
Berkeley is not the place it is made out to be. Competitive, liberal, crazy. Everyone here is the same as you would be, a bit worried about the safety of the area, a bit nervous on making friends, but open minded to new things, new places, and new people. Last night, we had a deep talk about religion—why people follow it, why we believe what we do, why it’s so important to people to...
enntran: The three most honest minutes in television history. well damnnnn
Berkeley Orientation Day 0: Humbled.
I arrived in San Jose at 7pm, where Amanda, a family friend of mine, picked me up. I was staying at her house (her mother was my mother’s best friend) and they were gracious enough to take me to and from Berkeley for my orientation. Although orientation or college hadn’t started yet, I must say that today has been quite a change and new experience for me. I ate dinner with their...
My senior project, with Kathy Dang! :) Good way to end the year.
Baron Games Trailer! →
I LOVE THIS. FVHS has an epic broadcast crew! <3
Anonymous asked: Hey man, I go to school with you. I've actually known you for a long time. Since I think Sophomore year. You are a really great person. I've always thought of you as one of those nice guys. You don't really talk to me very much. Which is kind of sad. Because I'm actually positive we'd get along great. I honestly hope that you and I might end up friends by the end of the...
Haters gonna hate.